makingthecut

So I am not going to smoke anymore. I’m not a big smoker as it is, but occasionally when I am kickin it with a few friends and they roll a blunt I’ll tend to hit it. For the little fun that I have being stoned, which is really not much I honestly don’t like being high that much, it’s just not worth it because I get the munchies so bad, and once I have the munchies and my will power is out the window I go nuts. I wake up feeling guilty and sick and I am just so over it!!!! I also and establishing a strict strict strict no eating after 8 pm rule. I know i’ve said I was going to do his before but now my heart is in it, I need to post reminder stickey notes around or motivational pictures. Also I need to start drinking more water again, I was doing so good before but since I lost my water bottle i’ve been slacking. So today I will get my water filled up, grab a magazine, go to the gym and do an hour of cardio, come home and shower/get ready for work, pack myself a lunch and record my food for the day, and go to work! Tonight if Rhody comes down to visit I shouldn’t have a problem avoiding the late night munchies but if he doesn’t I think right after work I will go in the hot tub at ron/jane’s then come home and pass out. I need to start tracking EVERYTHING I put in my mouth, no more nibbles of bread at work, it just sets off my habit of grazing.

So I have decided that with too much freedom I let myself loose track of what I’m actually eating and I let myself cheat. Tomorrow I am going to start pre-planning my daily menu and keeping it fairly mundane/boring. I think this will be good for me, I need to shift away from being excited about eating and doing it for fun and rather start thinking about it as just a way to fuel my body, just part of my strict regimen. Once I actually accomplish something then maybe I’ll treat myself but I tend to “reward” myself if I’ve had a good day, but that reward turns into a couple rewards and before I know it I’ve ruined my good day of dieting. Also I need to completly outlaw latenight snacks, from here on out I will not eat anything after 8 pm. Because I get off work at around 9:30 or 10 pm I get home and am in the habit of grabbing a bowl of cereal or something, but this is bad because I consume these calories and they just sit in me once I go to sleep, no buring them off.  I’m doing well with drinking lots of water and staying active and getting atleast 5 workouts in a week, but its time to step up the calorie restrictions so that I start dropping the weight fast. Having a new boy interest is great motivation to work hard, stay focused and start looking great . I am going to stick to this strict regimine all week and friday I am going to buy a new outfit to wear for the next time I see the boy!

Things are going pretty well so far, I am keeping track of everything I eat and trying to stay in my range of 1200 calories a day. I’m also trying to incorperate a LOT of water into my day. I am not going to be doing the exact exercise plan in making the cut, but I am working out everyday and on the days when I’m not doing a boot camp class or too sore to weight lift I’ll be doing the exercises in the book. Let me tell you, that boot camp class at 24 hour fitness kicked my butt! It is a whole hour of constant moving, jumping, lifting. It was really fun but challenging and it got me sweating and working harder than any other class I’ve done. I only wish they offered it more than just 2 times a week, I can only make one of the days, if I could I would do it at least 3 times a week. So today I am sore as hell so I won’t be doing any lifting but tonight when I get off work I am going to go to the gym to do 30 minutes of cardio and some situps.

Jillian Michaels has inspired me to join in on her 30 day fitness and nutrition plan in her book Making the Cut. I have tried to diet throughout my whole life, I have always been slightly over weight. But every time I start one diet, I lose my focus, cheat here and there, and then get frustrated when I don’t see results fast. I need to be patient, I am going to do weekly weigh ins, aiming at losing 2 lbs a week. I can eat healthy, thats not the issue for me, being consistent in my work outs is whats hard. It would be nice to have a weight loss buddy to vent to and lean on for support, for some reason I tend to have skinny friends and talking to them about my weightloss woes is like speaking to someone in another language. I need to being getting more sleep, drinking lots of water and prioritize my nutrition and fitness above all the other crap. So I’m off the the gym for a late night work out. Also tomorrow I want to get up early and clean out my room, I want to declutter and refresh my life for this new, fresh, dedicated start.